papers, naivite, questions, frustration
Thank you to all my friends who called, wrote, and sent packages to wish me happy birthday. And to everyone who came over Sunday night to celebrate and eat good food. I'm officially 23, and officially the owner of a large number of excellent cds.
So the paper that caused so much stress last week is finished. I'm not thrilled with the outcome, but it's finished. I'm disappointed in myself for not caring about this next paper, either-the one for the class from last semester that was, to put it nicely, my least favourite class. I've got two weeks. Can it be done? I doubt it can be done well. That's depressing.
Questions distracting me of late:
-Must we relativize the Bible in order to be culturally sensitive? Must we relativize God in order to respond to criticisms about patriarchy and ecological destruction? (Yes, this comes from a class I'm in this semester, Christianity and the Ecological Crisis)
-How long does it take to get over unpleasant events in one's past? Do we ever truly "get over" anything? How do we keep from being constantly re-traumatized, from reliving the pain?
-What does it mean to truly (and healthily) "belong", in culture in which people look for belonging in all the wrong places?
-Who defines what Christianity is? If I think the Bible and Christ are vitally important to Christianity but an ecofeminist nun in Latin America doesn't, how do I wrap my head around it? (again, that class.)
-Why am I at ICS?
-Is the word "God" inherently patriarchal? Can a masculine God save women? (class--and Stu)
-Why don't I do anything about climate change, in my own life, when it's clear that my children will be facing the consequences? Why do we continue to contribute to our own destruction?
-Can naivite sometimes be a good thing?
-Why do I have zero motivation for this upcoming paper when I've always been obsessed with academic achievement? Why am I incredibly disappointed in myself but still can't make myself work on it?
-Why do I always feel like my obligations require more time than I am given each day?
-Why is the sky blue? (Ok, that's been a source of wonder for quite some time.)
100 points to whomever can answer every one of the above questions to my satisfaction. (Chris, be careful--that would be a whole lot of procrastination...)