Monday, May 21, 2007


breathe in....
....breathe out.....

that is the sound of sara actually breathing again because she is done with those two 19 page papers. on time. sent in. out of mind.

i apologize to those of you with whom i usually converse--i haven't been around much lately.

now, to get ready for a nine day vacation--to a conference in calgary and then to see my oldest sister and her family in vancouver.


i'm sure pictures and stories will follow. in ten days.

Friday, May 18, 2007

the hidden curriculum

No one is forcing me to be in graduate school. This is something I decided I wanted to do, something I thought I'd be good at. And I guess I am pretty good at it. And, despite all the stress and complaining, I kind of like it, too. Stimulating discussions, good friends, encouraging mentors, even writing papers--I generally enjoy all of the above.

Lately I have been thinking about my first year of grad school, and have come to the conclusion that really, I've learned more about myself this year than I have about philosophy. (Ok, I've learned a lot about philosophy, too, and it was a pretty steep learning curve.) My experience has been more about the non-school learning, perhaps as a result of the overwhelming nature of the school learning! I've learned about procrastination (yup, this is it), self-discipline, friendships, loving myself, being alone, taking responsibility for myself (and not others), and how rewarding it is to complete seemingly impossible tasks. And yes, I have also done some book learnin': about religion and public policy, reformational philosophy, pluralism (theological and societal), the ecological crisis we're in, and even a little about art.

Perhaps I was motivated to write this post because I am in the middle of a huge crunch time and I need to convince myself that this is where I am supposed to be right now. I need to revise one final research paper and finish (about 10 more pages) of another before Monday, because I'm leaving on Tuesday for a conference in Calgary, and am then on to visit my sister and her family in Vancouver. I also need to do laundry, rearrange my apartment to make room for a summer roommate, and a number of other odds and ends before I leave.

But if this year has taught me anything, it's that these things will get done. Somehow. And that gives me hope. Ultimately, I am certainly not in control. Of course I have to work hard and be responsible with these opportunities, and I will face challenges; but in the grand scheme of things, I am not in control.


Sunday, May 13, 2007

subway inspiration

So the other day I was in and out of the subway a few times while doing errands. The weather was very warm--one of the hottest days of the year so far, and humid too--and it suddenly occurred to me: Why don't we all live underground? In the summer, it's so much cooler underground, both in my basement apartment and on the subway. In the winter the ground acts as insulation and contains the heat of my cozy basement apartment with amazing efficiency. Then we could expend less fossil fuel heating and cooling! It's the future of ecologically friendly living.

Oh yeah, except we'd all have to be ok living in homes with no natural light. EEEeeek.

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

yes, i do realize how silly this sounds

i feel like i'm behind on life.

so many of my friends are doing fabulous things, things that i've always wanted to do, and that i envision myself doing someday.

buying homes, gardening, buying cars (well, i'm still crossing my fingers that this can wait a looooong time, or forever), getting married, having children, actually being done with school.

and it just feels like everyone's ahead of me in the game of life!

[caveat: the last time i actually played the Game of Life, i commented on how ridiculously uniform it was...and how i should certainly keep this in mind when feeling "behind"...)

and i know it's not a contest. it just feels like everyone else is more grown up, more "really an adult" than me.

i know that some of you reading this are still in school, so that helps a bit, knowing i'm not the only one!

perhaps this is the "i have so many papers to finish (and start?) that my brain is momentarily turning to mush and all i want is to be a normal 23 year old enjoying summer" mentality kicking in.


Sunday, May 06, 2007

Everyone's favourite president

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

pictures of the lenten days (part deux)

I went, spur of the moment, with my parents to Michigan one weekend in March. We stayed with my brother and sister-in-law and their two kids, Alyssa and Bradley. Guess what? A third is on its way, due in November!!
(On the same trip, I got to see Marcus, Amy, Justine, and Shaffstall! Those pictures to come...)

Bradley has loved Grandpa's glasses from the time he could grab them off his face.

Grandma and Alyssa

Three generations of athletic men: my dad, my brother, and little Bradley show their stuff!

Poor Alyssa...she fell off the slide and was cut between her lip and her nose :(
But she was still smiling!

Bradley doesn't like having his picture taken.

Reading already--and not even two years old!